Time to Fess Up

Last week was really hard.  We had this glorious bike riding weekend, and then traveled along through Iowa visiting some of Jordan's friends and family and then landed at a church over the weekend.  None of those things were hard, but the battle I personally went through dreading eating the food that was put before and not being able to work out, was hard.  We were so busy, and I was so physically and emotionally tired I just was not motivated to get up and work out at 5 am, or stay up late to make sure I got it in.  So early on I told myself I wasn't going to worry about it.  But the people in Iowa are good ole farming folk, meat and potato folk, and there was hardly any healthy options to our meals.  Even the vegetables were cheesy casseroles.  And I'm not saying all of this to complain.  That's part of the reason the week was so hard, because I don't want to be a snob.  I want to accept the blessing of people providing for us, and pass on blessings to them, it's just not what I've been used to.  But I made enough excuses that I lost most of the control I had and ate too many desserts and junk.  None of it was satisfying, but because I told myself I wasn't going to worry about it, I just went along with every whim I wanted.  But finally the weekend came, and we were in a hotel with a gym, and I had time to work out and it felt so good, but I still didn't clean up my eating.  And Monday came and I weighed...191 WHAT!?  Yeah...I was a little devastated, but I told myself, no one had to know and I would give myself a week to get back on track.  I tell you all of this because I think that loosing weight is a battle, and sometimes we lose, but it's what matters after.  Will we get back up and keep fighting or go back to our old ways?  Well I have returned, and in just 2 days I'm back to 185.  Crazy how fast that happened.  But I won't complain.  But we all struggle, and I'm not above the struggle...so wherever you are in the journey...keep fighting, and get back up when you get knocked down.  Lets press on together!